Dream a Little Dream

But not of me - that would be kinda creepy depending upon the context of the dream.

I have the unhappy situation of not being able to remember my dreams. There have only been a few that I have been able to remember - like the one where Amber and I did heroin. I guess it stands out because I remember the feeling in the dream so much, though I've never taken heroin, so I have no basis of comparison.

The other ones that stand out were ones I had about the end of the world, and there are several I can remember. One was that there was this gigantic earthquake, and chaos everywhere, and my mother was missing - and somehow because of that I knew it was the end. There was a split, and you had 2 groups of people - The New World Order, and the Old World Order, and the newbies were using violence to bring people to their side. Next thing I remember was that I was in a room with a bunch of people - in some government building - and the women were taken to a room and given a bag full of makeup. I knew something was wrong, so I asked one of the chemists who were in the room for some reason (it was Caitlin's dad), and he said it was ok - as long as they didn't take my picture. Then I was at some movie theater, and I had the choice of seeing Pretty in Pink or Reservoir Dogs, and I had the feeling my choice decided if I was going to heaven or hell.

It's kinda neat to pick it apart - like the fact that some cultures believe (or past tense, believed - as I'm not sure many still do) that having your picture taken steals your soul. Ok - so maybe that's the only thing, but when I told my mother she read a lot into it, and then started talking about how there was scripture saying people would have prophetic dreams and stuff.

Another one I had, there were demons everywhere, and the humans were rounded up and put in concentration camps (or something like it). It was pretty terrifying, and we were all sure we were going to die, but then one of the demons told us it was only going to be about 12 people killed worldwide. (Obviously, not so scary after that) The last one involved parts of the moon breaking off and falling to earth. Though in the whole dream, it was more about me finding someone and saying goodbye than it was about the destruction.

I was reading a theory that people who can't remember their dreams are subconsciously afraid of the content of their dreams - which made me think: If the stuff I can remember is pretty scary - what kind of crap am I dreaming about that I block out?!

There's also another thing I want to talk about that's related to sleep, and has happened to me quite frequently. I wake up, but for whatever reason am unable to open my eyes. I'll struggle, but they're so heavy I can't get them open, and I just eventually fall asleep again. When I wake up the second time, I'm fine, but it's so scary. I don't know if this is some weird dream or if my body is just too tired and unable to wake up with my brain. I've started writing a story about it, and we'll see how that goes - I'm kinda stuck right now.

I could gush about my love of Neil Gaiman, but I think I'll save that for another post.